Absence

Heys

Just recently my computer broke down and I probably have to go get a new power supply. right now at my grandma's so i guess i should take the opportunity to blog.
So I'll probably wont be blogging much soon at least until i get things fixed. In the meantime I'll go bury myself in books..

My blog's not dead yet okays.

Okay I've just updated my study timings and inflated it. Tuition on tues, wed, thurs, twice on saturday and also sunday. Why does it feel like I'm not having enough? Hmm.. somehow without the influence of blogging and msn, revision ain't that bad after all huh.. *Hyder has gone nuts*

Temporarily I won't be able to chat with loong and sis on msn but I'm always reachable by sms. Bizarrely, this doesnt seem to affect me much... coz n the end the bottom line is ya can't have too much of a good thing. lols...~

(But if you think I'm a good thing, I'll be happy to give you more than you deserve..)
Hehehehehehehehehehehehee.... XD

Look here and you're so damn awesome. :)))
See ya sooooon.

~Hyd

The sky is blue -.-

Thanks to zinger I couldn't resist doing the quiz she sent me. Hehehehee... -.- okays

List the top five presents you want for your birthday"
Go check my wishlist it's on the column on the left. -.-

Answer the following questions:

Your relationship with her is:
I'm still trying to figure that out.

Your impression of her:
She is so damn COOL. I never regretted being her fan. XP

The most memorable thing she did for you:
Bump into her so that some of her coolness would rub on to me. So freakin honoured.

If she becomes your lover, you will:
Pretend to be surprised. (LLLLLLOLLLLLL)

If she becomes your lover, what does she need to improve on:
Um, staying that way? (sheesh why are u asking me this crap I hardly know her)

If she becomes your enemy, you will:
I'm too afraid to think of the consequences O.O

Your overall impression of her:
I told you she is so DAMN cool. Can't you get that in your head? Sheesh.

How do you think the people around her think about her:
So freakin cool?

The character you love about yourself:
I'm so hot. (-.- @#$%^&*!!!!!)

On the contrary, the character which you hate about yourself is:
Being a helpless and LAME emo and letting others control my emotions

The most ideal person you wanna be:
Some smart guy you see on the news most of the time.

For people who care and like you, say something to them?
Aw, shucks, I'm blushing here. Oh stop it you're too kind. (....-.-'''''''')

Pass this quiz to 10 persons in random order whom you wish to know how they feel about you:
[ Note: As you can clearly see numbers 2 to 10 are girls. Reason: I DON'T WANNA ASK GUYS WHAT THEY'D DO IF I BECOME THEIR LOVER. Oh well. Zach can always skip the questions. ==]
1) Zach
2) Zinger
3) Ummi
4) HauYan (Now you have 2)
5) Shirley (Now you have 2 as well)
6) Sista
7) Nasha
8) Joanne
9) Mubaraka
10) Ummi

Hyd~

Ball of Lightning

Sorry I kinda got distracted during studying last night coz my camera looked so IRRESISTIBLE. Yeah, I study in the dark coz I share my room with bro. I usually sleep 2 hours after him due to late night work. And, no, there is no one behind me. (I think... O.O)

Hmmm....

I took this video just 2 hours ago. Mom called me to the balcony and pointed to a tiny twinkly dot in the sky. She told me at first she THOUGHT it was a star, but then she asked me what I thought it was. I got the camera and filmed it.

What do YOU think it is? A UFO? A ball of lightning in the sky? Some space phenomena in outer space? Ongoing supernova? Or a sign of Doomsday O.O ? Lol. Yeah, I guess those were really unlikely. Sorry to spoil your suspense but I figured it was probably some satellite launched recently after I discovered a trail of smoke ( like the ones jets would leave ) nearby. The twinkly thingy seems to be moving but I doubt it would be some sort of aircraft or worse, a UFO. Well, you never know. Anything's possible.

Speaking of possibilities, the chances of me aceing the upcoming CT1 would probably be really low coz I haven't really got down to ruthless revision. Homework's just been piling up and the drive to study just ain't there. I hope I keep up soon, the Days of Destiny aren't really that far away.

So have you seen me and my file at school?

I was planning to put 'Look here and you're a gorrilla' but I figured that would be really discouraging when I open my file every lesson. -.- So maybe this would give an impression of my darker side. One word sums it all I guess. At least it was better than the previous message which had 3 letters of blood on it : 'E-M-O'. That drove a few onlookers away, but I'd be really dumb anyway, considering how much attention I reel in these days.. Maybe I should change the message on my file every week. Too bad I can't think of any.

Hey, gotta catch up on sleep. Don't fret if I don't update nowadays. Life is like a racing track, can't afford to fall behind.

Stay cool. :)

Repentance

10/1/08

I will remember this day for the rest of my life

For I have cried the most amount of remorseful tears

screamed in utter despair

yelled bitterly for forgiveness

and prayed solemnly in lamentation

Self-condemnation never felt so bitter

My anguish never felt so sour

For my deepest, darkest secret has been known.

I'm sorry, mother.

I know that you are really heartbroken but at the same time,

you feel my sorrow and you're willing to forgive me,

but I will not accept it.

I have disappointed you, and

I will make it up to you as much as I can.

For I don't deserve to be your son

if I'm not able to prove myself to you.

God forgive me,

I will endure the retribution You will place upon me

I've realized my wrongdoings and I will continue to pray for Your forgiveness

for as long as I live.

It would take a few words to declare my repentance

But it would take a miracle for me to ever smile again

Emos R Us

Ecstasy - Desire - Vengeance- Despair=) Your Darkest Fear

I'm Watching You

Just to edit this post a bit, wanna say somethin. What's with the girls at school? Why'd u guys keep lookin at me and then giggle giggle like retarded clowns? What's up with me HUH? What about me makes me so fricken funny?! My mee maggie hair? My googgly eyes?? My sexy poise? O.O (okay leave out the last one :P) One thing's for sure, you smile at me, I'll smile back. I'm not THAT heartless.

Oh well. Who cares about how I look. At least my brain's in top shape. Thanks sista for cheerin me up, sometimes u dont realize how much happiness u bring in just simple smses. And YOU, stay cool and keep tagging. My blog's a junk heap without u guys.

See yahs.

Hyder's Prime Time Recovery

Im sick of your fake promises
Im sick of hearing we'd last forever.
Im sick of u pretending to listen
when deep inside you're like 'whatever'
Im sick of seeing you each day
Im sick of thinkin what to say
Im sick of tryin to help u out
when you dont give a fuck about me anyway
Im sick of you dickheads betraying me
Im sick of you bitches using me
Im sick of knowing I'll never be free
from this animosity between you and me

~

Im sick of living life each day

knowing fate would never go my way

no matter how hard I hope or pray

the sky's still dark, the clouds are gray

Im sick of knowing Im still a shmuck

that I've been there when lightning struck

if cursed relationships are just my luck,

and no one helps me when I'm stuck

dammit I must really suck

But it took me awhile to understand

that things will never go as planned

if you run away to no man's land

and hide youself under the sand

~

Im sick of making wrong choices all the time

and when life is like a nursery rhyme

It's the final year and I heard the chime

that now im finally in my prime

~

NO MORE NONSENSE

NO MORE GAMES

NO MORE GRADES THAT BURN IN FLAMES

NO MORE KLUTZ

NO MORE SHMUTZ

NO MORE GIRLS THAT DRIVE YOU NUTS

NO MORE BUTS AND NO MORE CUTS

ITS ALL GUTS AND KICKING BUTTS

~

I now know who my real friends are

I now know how I got this far

~

Im not sick and my heart won't crack

Im not sick so I won't slack

Im not sick of my wardrobe -black

Im not sick but I deserve a smack

Oh crud,

the fricken emo's back.