Repentance

10/1/08

I will remember this day for the rest of my life

For I have cried the most amount of remorseful tears

screamed in utter despair

yelled bitterly for forgiveness

and prayed solemnly in lamentation

Self-condemnation never felt so bitter

My anguish never felt so sour

For my deepest, darkest secret has been known.

I'm sorry, mother.

I know that you are really heartbroken but at the same time,

you feel my sorrow and you're willing to forgive me,

but I will not accept it.

I have disappointed you, and

I will make it up to you as much as I can.

For I don't deserve to be your son

if I'm not able to prove myself to you.

God forgive me,

I will endure the retribution You will place upon me

I've realized my wrongdoings and I will continue to pray for Your forgiveness

for as long as I live.

It would take a few words to declare my repentance

But it would take a miracle for me to ever smile again