Haunted Past

To: The Girl

Why,
Why now?
Why did you decieve me?
Why break the heart that beat for you?
Why did you ever accepted me when you knew it will end this way?
Why stab the blade into the heart you had already scarred enough?
Why?

Where,
Where do I go now?
Where have I gone wrong?
Where did you go wrong?
Where can I hide this painful scar that you carved?
Where?

When,
When will you feel sorry?
When did I ever mistreated you?
When will I ever get to show the side of me you didn't know?
When will this pain ever go away?
When?

What,
What made you change your mind?
What did you get from hurting me like this?
What is the true reason behind all this?
What have I done to deserve this?
What have you done?
What?

How,
How will I ever get over this?
How do you like hurting someone who had helped you so much?
How do you feel after all we've been through?
How can you expect me to just forget this and move on?
How?

Have you,
Have you ever considered how I felt?
Have you ever wondered why I care about you so much?
Have you ever pondered why we got so far together and ended just like that?
Have you ever seen the misery that lies hidden among my smiles?
Have you ever felt the magic in the way we look in each other's eyes?
Have you ever treasured the words I say to you?
Have you ever had the courage to face the one who's right beside you all along?
Have you ever thought about me, us, and not just about yourself?

All this time, I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer. But with so many questions you left unanswered, it's no use. You may think it's been so long and you're over it like it never happened, but what about me? The truth lies within you, and it seems that I'll never know.

Maybe it is 'just the past'. Maybe you should just ask me to stop being so immature. Maybe I was never meant to be special to you at all. Maybe I should just f*ck off.

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