Inadequate

Dear Diary

Despite valiant efforts to be self-sufficient in mathematics, I struggled through the first class test.

While being top ‘chiong-ster’ in class for completing tutorials way before in advance, ironically making ends meet simply to master a subject wasn’t enough for me. They even teasingly called me ‘no-life boy’ when they spotted me doing revision exercises during 15 minute breaks. I laughed it all off because well... it’s true anyway.

However things went screwy during the Engineering Maths class test today – the first of many to come. Could it be overconfidence? I got stuck in a few short questions. Some answers looked too shitty to be called ‘answers’. Even with multiple analyses of my workings, I couldn’t seek out what went wrong. This only proves one thing – my efforts are inadequate.

I’m not afraid of failure – because I don’t believe in failure. When you fall, you get back up, dust yourself and keep moving forward. You don’t cry. You don’t turn around. You don’t go back. You just move forward. To be honest, I kinda expected this to happen. Just because you blasted off to a flying start doesn’t mean you’ll soar effortlessly all the way to the end. I foresaw this from a mile away and it was only a matter of time before my first slip-up from the starting point. Still I’m glad I took it positively.

You should too. The state of your life is only a reflection of your state of mind. It's not you who is inadequate. Your EFFORTS are inadequate. My words may sound cliché to you, but then again, we’re not all optimists. Maybe not yet. Believe in your dreams. Believe in yourself.