Temperature

It's Burning Up, by the Jonas Brothers.

Rock on~

End of Holidays

The days are becoming shorter.

The nights are disappearing fast.
The path has become twisted as ever.

The skies are starting to gloom.

The storm is brewing.

The earth is shaking.

The wind is picking up.

The darkness is swallowing us up.

The firestorm is coming down on us.

The fog is finally clearing.
The gates of destiny has opened.

THE END IS NEAR

And the Battle has JUST BEGUN.

No. It cant be.

....

Crud.

Hyder's 100th Post.

Congratulations Hyder. Ya did it man, your 100th post.

It's been quite a while. I mean... wow not bad. Its been almost 3 years.

Well I'm in sec 4 and halfway through. I've gone through so many phases in this teen life that I dont' know where to begin. Smiles, upsets, laughter, horror, fatigue, celerity, courage, perseverence, hate, despair, embarrassment, nonsense, jubilance, failures and accomplishments.

What a day. What a week. What a year. What an irony.
Four years and still I have not grown out of the particular things I'm suppose to get rid of. And so many different evolutions, not one am I proud of.

Sec 1: The Mouse.

I was small, scared and oblivious to others around me. I was amazingly helpful, friendly, stupid and vulnerable. I feared all the others around me, I longed to be the best, I showed the rest what I'm made of. I was curious of what I will go through, with not a clue of what's my fate. Tiny, helpless and confused.

Sec 2: The Puppy.

Unknown to what the consequences were, I took stupid risks, with the hope of obtaining the rewards I never deserved. Like a sick, annoying little canine, I developed pointless infatuations, not one did I not regret. I endured every sick joke they played on me, every kick, every beating, every bite, every scratch. My heart pledged for vengeance, restoration and hope. And I succeeded.

Sec 3: The Wolf.

Towering over those who used to intimidate me, I stepped forward with a new destiny. Old friends departed, new companions came in. I only looked towards victory, despite so many challenges that arose. Little do I know the pursuit for desire would only open a can of worms. Alone and confused, once again, I suffered under my own actions, I repeated mistakes. I even discovered the meaning of true love, and the happiness behind it. But I found myself drowning in a pool of emotions everytime I crawled out from under the rock. But I fought to the very last bitter end.

Now in sec 4 I'm still finding myself. Not the fool, not the geek, not the emo. I'm still stuck in a broken love triangle. IM STILL STUCK IN THIS BLOODY HEARTBREAKING LOVE TRIANGLE. I don't know why do I still do this, why do I even bother DREAMING? I guess if I'd just receive all the answers it probably won't hurt so bad, aww the crud. Sinking... kicking... have to survive the waves before I drown once again. I think now I know what my sec 4 stage is.

Sec 4: The Mouse, The Puppy and The Wolf. Drifting apart from my sanity, I wish to break free once more. Maybe grow fins or even wings.. I'm still as vulnerable as the mouse, as hapless as the puppy, and as alone, and confused as the wolf. I still jump to conclusions and offer myself sacrifice to fate. I have yet to counter every weakness, and still I submit to them occassionally. My past has left many, many scars, which some I know can never heal. Put myself on the line: Crash, and burn.

Like I said, there are some things I've done or been through that I am not proud of, and is still haunting me till this day. Maybe, just maybe it'll be one last evolution before I leave high school. She's still a part of me, and its really really hard to face the reality of all this. Is there a hidden truth behind all this? She knows damn well it kills me, but I'll never break free from her clutches. Why deos she seem so close when she's the person I'll never be with in the future? Will I ever find my answers?

Metamorphosis and all that, has taken its toll, and maybe I'm not ready yet to break out of this cocoon. Happiness or destiny, one of which I shall have to sacrifice. A 100 posts, and still seeking the true meaning of victory. Still drowning in confusion. Still crawling in the dark.

One day, Hyder, you'll see.

Phrases and Formulae you oughta keep in mind

LOGIC OF LOVE

Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy



OFFICE ARITHMETIC

Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime



SHOPPING MATH

A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs

A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn't need.



GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.

A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.

A successful woman is one who can find such a man.



HAPPINESS

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.

To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.



LONGEVITY

Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.



PROPENSITY TO CHANGE

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.

A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.



DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE

A woman has the last word in any argument.

Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.



HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, 'You're next.'

They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.



Stay happy alwayz~

The fourth time

Well it's been one cool holidays but we'll be coming back in a few more days time. I seriously got nothing good to write about so i just dump the emo aside and blog this:

The local news station was interviewing an 84-year old lady because she had just got married -- for the fourth time.
The interviewer asked her questions about her life, about what it felt like to be marrying again at 84, and then about her new husband's occupation.

"He's a funeral director,"she answered.

"Okaay... interesting,"the man thought.
He then asked her if she wouldn't mind telling him a little about her first three husbands and what they did for a living.
She paused for a few moments, needing time to reflect on all those years.

After a short time, a smile came to her face and she answered proudly, explaining that she first
married a banker in her early 20's, then a circus ringmaster in her 40's, later to a preacher when in her 60's and now, in her 80's, a funeral director.

The interviewer looked at her, quite astonished, and asked why she had married four men with such diverse careers.

"Easy, son," she smiled.
"I married one for the money, two for the show, three to get ready, and four to go!"



:D LOLL...
Anyway, forget the old lady. I might be sticking to glasses for the rest of my pitiful life. Damn it.

Plunged

Two words:

'Simply remarkable.'

After so many attempts our principal finally plunged to his watery fate. What a classic. I luv me camera.

U coulda seen the look on his face, it was like Scream. WHAHA

Troubled

Just to add on to the 'Don't' list I've been writing since the day I became her friend.
( September 2006 - June 2008 - future )


Don't give her anymore drawings.
Don't blog about things about us that they're not meant to know.
Don't tell her you miss her like shit.
Don't sms her when she's having that three-letter-word-thing-that-girls-have.
Don't ask her what the hell is that three-letter-word-thing-that-girls-have.
Don't go overseas and have a sms chat with her till you blow your bills.
Don't forget to tag her blog if you tagged her sister's.
Don't keep telling her how much you like cheese.
Don't chat with her for more than 2 hours.
Don't EVER say that three-word-phrase to her coz u know it's not true.
Don't always think that she hates you.
Don't pretend to avoid her when you don't really mean it.
Don't tell her how much you dream of her.
Don't talk about anything that has to do with love.
Don't tell her about who's crushing on you.
Don't tell her about who you're crushing on.
Don't complain about life to her.
Don't tell her about how you're related to her juniors.
Don't ask her who she's in love with.
Don't ask her about you.
Don't send her lame poems.
Don't talk about your past with her.
Don't sweet talk her.
Don't send her anymore gifts or she'll grow fat and then you'll be sorry.
Don't ask her how she is coz you're only gonna get the same answer.
Don't use VERY DIFFICULT words.
Don't pretend to act cool/dumb/funny/cute/hot/macho.
Don't use metaphors.
Don't talk to her unless you have a very good reason.
Don't tell her you still like her.
Don't stab yourself when you see her at school.
Don't scare her to death. ( Usually unavoidable )
Don't send her smses she'll never understand.
Don't be so emo when you talk to her coz she doesn't like it.
Don't go crazy when she comes online. ( Can't help it. )
Don't kill yourself if she doesn't wanna talk to you.
( Too bad. I lost count on how many lives I've wasted )
Don't send her anymore Backstreet Boys songs.


Too bad I don't have a 'Do' list coz she's really unpredictable. Or maybe, it's just me. I'm sorry, girl.

May the list go on. :)

Unthinkable

WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Freakin !#$%^&* I seriously don't know what to say, or what I was thinking, but I definitely pulled through!

In case you forget, or you're not from BV, I actually did something not many would be sane enough to do. I had to read this speech called the Letter to Myself in front of the whole school and I turned it into not only a great speech, but a great laugh as well! Geeeeeezzz....!!!

Whoever thought the someone who could actually turn a speech upside down was me>?
Whoever thought I would be brave enough to pull off something silly like that>?
Whoever thought I received more laughter than I had expected>?
Whoever thought an emo like me would sum up the courage to make the whole school laugh>?
Whoever thought I could make such an impact on my life that I would never forget>?
POST SPEECH INTERVIEW

Q: Hyder, you were chosen as one of the best and invited up the podium to read your Letter to Myself to the whole school. And the way you read, it was really 'interesting'. What do you have to say?

A: LOLs.. You know since Day 1 I wanted to make an impact. I don't care what sort of impact I leave, as long as its large scale. I saw the Letter to Myself and I saw it as an opportunity. And I did the unthinkable. I read out me Letter in some kinda western slang. Not only that, I read it freakin fast. Insane, yes, ridiculous, yes, but I pulled it off. I made NO errors in pronounciation and it came out kinda entertaining... and maniacal.

Q: Did you plan to do that from the start?

A: Okay, well seriously from the beginning I never thought that was the wisest thing to do, considering how many people are actually watching... so no, it wasn't planned. I guess sometimes you just have to show the whole school another side of you they never knew, and be a fool for 2 minutes. Still, I kinda enjoyed myself up there. I was crazy shyt. :)

Q: How did you feel after you've read the speech?

A: To tell you the truth, ever since that morning, I wasn't quite myself. In fact I was being the old paranoid Hyder. I was afrad of what the teachers might say. Or what people might think of me in a long run. I was really freakin worried for a while. But now I'm just proud of myself.

Q: You said you wanted to make an impact, tell us more.

A: I wanted to leave school with an experience I'll never forget. I wanted to show people that I'm not that kinda person who is boring, haughty and all emotional. I wanted to be myself, but I couldn't find that opportunity until now. I don't want to leave school without making an impact. So now I'm really ecstatic, coz I never really know the conservative Hyder would clown around in front of the school. Still, that letter was not meant to be all messed up. It DID have a message, right?! Killed 2 birds with one stone but I had sto sacrifice some of that so-called dignity. LOL. It was worth it.

Q: Any last words you'd like to say?

A : Sometimes you never thought you can pull of something no one else has done before, and the satisfaction is really great. Believe, be yourself and dare to take risks. You never really know until you've tried and when its something BIG, it's really an experience you'll never forget. And from then on.. your life will NEVER EVEEEEEEEER BE THE SAME AGAIN. :D

Exhilarated

OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY..................

Forget my previous post okay.
There's nothing about it. I was y'know, crazy emo roller coaster shyt and all that.. yes so don't read the previous post called 'gift' coz it means nothing okay, nonsense. So stop asking yourself stupid questions about me coz its all meaningless and cannot be answered. Yeah yeah. Nothing surprising there huh? I mean, *snort* c'mon, it's Hyder, since when is it surprising to see him sulk about himself like some jackass with no directions. Oh waitasec, since when has this guy have directions, i mean, psssh! For Pete's sake someone tell this guys to get a grip. He's writing all this crap he doesnt even understand and he expects people to listen to him. Whatever man. Like totally when has this blog even talks about the joys about human life its not like we're living in some fantasy emo world where everyone just goes 'wee hee look at me im a sad sad emo'. Its like feeding bull crap to us when we're stuck in the middle of the sahara. Geez would this guy come back to Earth he's driving us nuts. Yeah look one example is that you still read this sorta lame shit he's talkin to himself when you're not supposed to. Hey man u got guts to read this so maybe you should like fly away now go home or this post will drive you nuts. Seriously. So are your parents screaming their guts out at you for using the computer too long. Well i think its about time they should coz u are starting to get on my nerves. Just read the last damn sentence and stop torturing yourself man. No, really, get off the screen. Dude, I can't help it so just quit now when you can or you'll regret it later okay. Dammit you're reaching the end what the heck man. Howd u get this far. So whatever. Maybe you should get a counsellor or psychiatrist or something coz u really have issues or do u really like this post so much you just cant get ur eyes unglued from it. Man, and I thought I was nuts. The real purpose is, just dont read my previous post again coz it sux and its a damn waste of time. Like this post. Typical I must say but hey, you chose to read it. Mmhm, yup so don't remember anything about what I said earlier. Or what I JUST said.
Coz it means nothing. Nothing, okay?

Ha-ha. Mm-Hm. Yeah. Oh yes. Mmm. Oh really. Yeah. Okaay. Ahh. Ooh. Wee. Yup. Exactly. Swell. Yeah. Okies. :)

Am I happy? OH OF COURSE IM HAPPY, IM DAMN EXHILARATED in fact. :D

Gift

Y'know.

Have you ever imagined yourself having a certain 'gift' but you are never really sure if its a blessing or curse?

Ever wondered what would have happened if you can rely so much on intuition that it scares you? If this so-called gift could change your destiny in a split second, and affect the people you love around you? When it comes, you fear something terrible happens and you regret when it actually does.

I don't get it. Why me? What is this strange feeling I cannot explain and tell others? Would it soon lead to my dreams, or my destruction?

I don't want them to be hurt anymore.

When will this ever end?

Be careful.