Perplexity

Heyys~

Just another okay week, boring like every other.
I guess ya can't really expect thrill when you're taking the fast, yet dreadful path.

I don't get it. How have I survived this far without thrill? I need something to drive my pulse wild, rock my brain beserk and send my blood rushing through my veins.. I'm deprived of sheer thrill. -.-

Just came back after night classes..
which before that I had 2.4km training at bedok reservoir, then walking about 2 km in the heavy downpour to school for media and then back at 6pm and went for nite classes at 7pm

Mom's fever was getting worse. She's just lying there on the bed her eyes closed yet chanting her prayers. Dad and my bros had tucked her in. I sat down beside her and talked to her. She says she's feeling extremely cold and weak. It's not fever....

Haniff my youngest bro had the heart of gold and sat beside her. He was worried, I could see deep fear in his eyes. He'd never seen mom so ill before and I guess he really couldn't help but cry.. tears of perplexity. He wished he could help but he couldn't. I never doubted my brother. Though he's just 7 and a half, he's really concerned for those he loves. He's not like any other and I'm proud to be his brother.

Seeing mom so helpless like that... it just stirs our emotions..

After I took a glass of water for mom she fell asleep. Or at least I think she did. It just scares me, y'know. Day in day out, mom takes care of all of us and when she's down the whole house seems to be upside down. For my brothers, their despair and unease are just so much more than I can imagine.

Get well soon, mom, I love you.