Cara Lynn

Dear Cara Lynn,

I was looking through old memoirs of the times we had in the past. Wow, were they great. If only I could turn back time I'd go through all of those with you once more. But sad to say, they're locked up in the past forever. If only you'd just answer my questions so I could break free just like you did. But no, you'd rather let me weep silently in confusion. What's your reason for leaving me like this? You never told me.

As the days grow cold and pointless, I couldn't remind myself of where we went wrong. I know we couldn't carry on like this any longer so you had to let me go. But why, Cara Lynn, why? You took me by surprise. What happened really? Was it me, was it you? Was it someone in between? Was it something like love but it's not? You never told me.

I struggled to find the missing pieces that make up my heart. There were scars that bled every once in a while, and wounds that are yet to heal. The sleepless nights went on for weeks, as I reflected on the wrong paths we took. Or maybe it was just me. What made you think I wasn't the one? You never told me.

As I pulled myself together, I shrouded myself in a whole new personality I've never thought I'd become. Darkness and uncertainty were my soulmates, while misery was my company. And love became my greatest foe. I've taught you a lot about living life in raging thunderstorm and how the path ahead will ever be unseen. I knew what was in for me now, but what will you become in the future? You never told me.

You've taught me a lot, Cara Lynn. I've never known true friendship if not for you. Though you have left me nothing but memories, you turned me into a guardian. You sent me someone to look after and guide while she grows up in high school. She's really close to me now and she's doing really well. I know the Cara Lynn I knew will be gone forever, but I promise I'll take care of her for as long as I can. If we hadn't crossed paths my life would have never been so meaningful...

But I just can't help it. How I've missed you and longed for your return. Not a word you have sent me since that fateful day. Where are you now, Cara Lynn? Will I ever get to see you again? I've been crawling in the dark searching for the answers and I've never found them.

Only you have the answers I need.. but the sad thing is..

..

..you never told me.

~Hyder