I'll wait for you

Weeeee.....

Hey guys... ~
What a great morning: it's Cross Country Day!!! Woo Hoo....
Damn- it was FUN!!! I think this is the first year i actually enjoyed Cross Country.. coz I did much better this year! Wish I can have it again ...

Totally had a blast > Hoobastank's rock music swirling thru my head as I dash past another student, oh the thrill !! Yeah maybe becoz I didnt have my buddy Mp3 with me when I ran the race two years ago, thats why it killed me.. and also, I managed to beat some people I never thought I could beat in running..Wow. Hey am I growing stronger now or what? :P

Music gets my heart pumping fast, my legs pushing harder, my mind filled with the will-power I have never tasted before..

Today's also quite a special day. A year ago on this very day, I laid my eyes on The Bad Shooter for the first time in my life. Awww....

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But the happiness only lasted till the end of the run. Im back to emo-ing in my room, wondering when ~We~ would be together once more.

Im sitting on a wooden raft. Im stranded in the middle of the massive ocean, paddling like a helpless puppy..the waves thrashing against my decaying lifeline...I look in all directions, I can see nothing but the horizon. I'm drifting aimlessly across this abyss of mystery and silence, uncertain of the direction I should go. If only you could be here with me, you're the reason I want to survive. If I'm to waste away here and now, my last thought...

....would be of you.

We're going back to where we once were. My only wish is to be with you once more.



......I'll wait for you.

.....

The Bad Shooter <3

Hey peepolz.. This is a special tribute post to my luv-luv..

We all know she's called the 'Bad Shooter' my blog... well, there's a reason for that :p. Her true identity? Wait all century, I'm not tellin'. ha ha ha ha ha ha

Getting to know her was quite an experience. It took almost like forever just to earn her trust, but I did it. It wasn't easy cheering her up, but I did it. It was hard for me to really confess my true feelings, but I did that too. In the end, it all paid off. No regrets whatsoever. What she did to me in the past is all history.

Our relationship started extremely shaky. After being rejected (or more like betrayed) by past crushes, I was afraid. But when I saw ~her~, history had repeated itself. I don't know why, but I never seem to learn my lesson.

I see her in my eyes, I stand before a road that will lead into the unknown. I want to go, but I'm paralysed with fear. Fear of a choice, where the outcome isn't clear... I took the leap of faith.. which changed my life forever..

I got to know her, but it was a path of uncertainty. Like everyone else, she never gave me a chance. A raging thunderstorm of annoyance and frustration broke out between us. A scar engraved in my heart, too painful to bear.

I picked myself up, severed by the blade of hatred. The pain went on for nights, I pondered over how far I've gotten. Rueful tears of doubt and self-disgust rolled down my cheeks. Suddenly a bright ray of hope appeared before me. A girl, came forth and reached out her hand. It was the apology that was the first of many to come.

The clock counts down... the seconds tick away...

We're back to being friends, but we grew much closer. The journey continues... the bond between us was growing unbreakable.. a friendship so faithful, a loyalty so true-hearted. Its obvious, we're ..................in...........love........?

I wonder if, the journey will be, shorter as I hope, or much longer than it seems. But either way, I've made up my mind. I'm through feeling scared, I'm leaving that behind.

LOOK WHERE WE ARE NOW

Hoobastank

I still remember the time,
When this all felt like a dream.
So completely out of reach,
Frustrating.

We kept our nose to the grind,
Make the days turn into weeks.
Hoping time will heal the pain,
Of waiting.

Now it seems so long ago.

Just look back on,
How far we've come.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

All we've done,
Our battles won.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

I used to wonder if I,
Would ever have the chance to be,
Something more than what you see.
I doubt it.

We learned to open our eyes,
Now I both think we'd agree, ?
That we're better off than when we started.

There's still so much left to go...

Just look back on,
How far we've come.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

All we've done,
Our battles won.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

And the best is yet to come.
'cause our story isn't done.

Just look back on,
How far we've come.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

All we've done,
Our battles won.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

Look where we are now.
Look where we are now.
Look where we are now

Hey girl, I just wanna say that having you has really changed my life- it's a dream come true! Though we don't...you know...talk much in school, I hope we don't drift apart like what happened last time.. I wanna hold on to you as long as I could.. it's just that I feel so far away from you sometimes, I can't help wondering if you're doing fine. Truth bites: I never, not once, have I ever believed in BGR at this stage. Steady or not, it always ends in the junk heap. Ironically I'm in one myself. .....

...My dear sweet luv luv, please prove me wrong...

"Hyder, you must be tired cos you've been running thru my mind, you gotta be a thief cos you have stolen my heart, and i must be a bad shooter cos I keep missing you....."

Love you lots! :P

^^

Well what else can I say..maybe it's true.. I'm just a freaking emo for all I care. Or maybe t' was just my dark side taking over my body again..

I have a dark secret, its usually the cause of my mood swings. Sometimes im calm, and then of course, otherwise im totally going bonkers...

..like yesterday.

Fine. Today just got back better. I think becoz of 'the asking for forgiveness' incident that really drew a bucket of tears out of me last night. Never mind, I was just rejuvenating my soul with a prayer that would change me forever. :) I feel better today.

Lady Luck smiled at me since morning. In the bus to school I saw miss bad shooter with miss Pompipi so literally tagged along after them! hehehe :) Today was soooo nice, there was no E Maths, so we went to library for a free period, then it was English which was another free period so we returned to the library, and i played PICTIONARY with my pals :Rachel, ChengWei, WeiJie, Jesslyn, SieW Ee, Nasha, Cally, Zhao Ying and Oliver!! Oh great fun!.. :P

It was like last period then it was A Maths remedial but Mr Chu didnt show up. SO the newly formed LAME ALLIANCE OF 3E1 played Musical Chairs.

( =___= )''''

WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH!!!! SOO0o0o0o0OOO darned funny!!

I managed to caught up with PomPipi and BadShooter ^^ PURE LUCK!! ~~~~ walked beside Miss Pompipi while the relli shy BadShooter walked in front with the other 5 musketeers. :P na na na na quaaackk....

The scene was like the picture above. I was walking alone. The bff's were walking up front. I didnt really mind. I'm just a lovesick puppy.

"Everyone leads a roller coaster life. Ride it."

song of the day: How To Save a Life by The Fray (click on it on my HyderBox)

~Listen~Learn~Love~Live

Help.

It

hurts..

It

hurts

a

lot....

School restarts today

Hi.... :(
Semester 3 begins now. Nothing special. I expected something more.. but it's nothing special at all... there's something weird about how I'm feeling today.. something's wrong..
[Thanks.. at least u're reading my blog today. i appreciate that :) ]

Last nite.. I smsed *her* late... but she muz be asleep so she didnt reply. Until now...no answer..

I stepped into school today, I saw all my frens again, saw the same ol' teachers, saw the same bad shooter... Dunno why, but i feel S0oo0o0o0 LONELY!!!!

Yeah. Lonely. I have my best frends all beside me, yet they feel so0o0 far away.. and *her*, I cant believe it, I'm soo0o0o madly close to her but today it's as if we're total strangers..
What's causing me to feel this way, is still a mystery. The holidays that just ended, it was like heaven compared to now. I felt so0o0o loved and special at those times, and now....

.....I'm back to being the nobody I was before.

*slam* I face my Add maths homework, just standing there, waiting to torture me.
What's going on? No one's with me anymore!! Misery Misery Misery Misery....
Why couldnt life just stay as wonderful as long as possible, why does it have to change so fast?

Misery loves company. Is there anyone who would respond to this call for help?

i, like a rock, sink.. sinking till i hit the bottom.. the water is much deeper...than...i...thought........

My Fave Hoobastank Songs!!!

"Crawling In The Dark"

I will dedicate
And sacrifice my everything for just a second's worth
Of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
To navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
So when and how will I know?
How much further do I have to go?
How much longer until I finally know?
Because I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me
In front of me
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

"The Reason"

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

"Don't Tell Me"

Don't tell me that you are ready to change.
Don't tell me that from now it won't be the same.
It doesn't matter, 'cause at the end of the day,
It isn't what you say, it's what you do!

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!

What you say will be forgotten someday.
What you do will be remembered.
Empty promises always fade away.
What you keep will last forever.

Don't tell me you'll make things better for us.
Don't tell me that you're some one I can trust.
It doesn't mean a thing to me just because,
It isn't what you say, it's what you do!

Your actions will speak louder than you!

What you say will be forgotten someday.
What you do will be remembered.
Empty promises always fade away.
What you keep will last forever.

So show me that you really figured it out.
And show me everything that you are about.
But if you can't then you should just shut your mouth!..

'cause I don't care what you say or what you do,
You can't take back what you've put me through.
Your actions will speak louder than you!..

What you say will be forgotten someday.
What you do will be remembered.
Empty promises always fade away.
What you keep will last forever.

What you say will be forgotten someday.
What you do will be remembered.
Empty promises always fade away.
What you keep will last forever.

What you keep will last forever.

What you keep will last forever.

Forever...

The most mEmOrAbLe JUNE ever!!

HEY people!!! Just something i'd wanna say: Thanx for supporting me so much and being there when i needed u guyz. Im really lucky to have u guys (and also loyal visitors)!! Lol. This June was so eventful, i had a blast!!! Thrills, chills, tricks, kicks, smashes, splashes, hugs, bugs, spine chillers, head bangers, hard rockers, mad racers, thrill seekers, insane cleaners, BAD SHOOTERS!!! And lots and lots of '<3'>Though it was kinda sucky when it started, the holidays were really good!



I'll tell you da highlights...(or at least what i can remember)

• Sec 2 Camp, followed by the bloody nIgHtMaRe WeEkEnD.. no, i didnt have nightmares, but i was living IN NIGHTMARES.
• One of da most happiest things happened to me : My dear sweet friend became my dear dear sweet love!!! Like wow. Miracle of the Year!!! I thought a lot about it, but then again, why should i question fate??
• I was in hot soup a few days later. Yeah thats when i had to quit ol' Dreamcast. Due to unforeseen circumstances. lol. But i never regretted quitting.
• Its back to me and misery when everyone's relationship was on the rocks.. some of my frends broke up, some had arguments.. almost evryone on msn was like cheesed off by their partner, or just crying in pain. Everyone's on the same boat. My relationship with her was intact, but a bit cold. My pals tagged dreamcast tellin me to come back. Gee, i didnt know i had so many readers!!! Or they just didnt want me to quit. -.-' dunno why. I had to tHiNk about blogging again.. i was scared i wud do the same mistake again.
• Me and Zach went to Mount Faber and we took cable car!!! Then we went PP eat Swensens'' ..... coo000ll!!!
• I decided to go on and create a new blog. Yup this is it. No more evil stuff. ( But i didnt say no more crap! :p ) Yeah, hauyan has a new blog, and now pepe.. so what have i got to lose?
• I went to ESCAPE with Zach and we sure had fun!!! I became a real daredevil (thrill seeker ), we picked all the thrill rides and took them like PROs!!! But one excruciating moment when i almost died on the go-kart tracks when i tried to FLY the go-kart. Yah, i know its annoyingly stupid, then again, it was a moment of total freedom. I DRIFTED LIKE A PRO!!!! I tell you, i drove so fast, everything was a BLUR.
• Next day, it was FANTASTIC FOUR time!!!! I went with Zach and Luke to the movies. AWESOME!!!
• That Sunday, had a blast at Wild Wild Wet with my other-side cousins (not with Zach).... never had so much fun in months.. :P :P
• And er... i dont wanna talk about the apek thing. Refer to prev. post. LOL
• I think im going crazy about Hoobastank. I've been rocking the whole week. Hoobastank unleashed!! ( plus the head banging ) YOU HAVE GOT TO LISTEN TO HOOBASTANK. THEY ROCK MY WORLD!!

Yeah i think thats about all. I can write all this with every single detail, but to me its the memory and experience treasured in these words, i dont wanna forget em'.. Oh yeah.. i've also been busy almost every nite talking to my dearest luv-luv. I'd stay up until like 1am+ just to talk to her.. but everytime i stay up, my life's at risk. Mom and Dad mite just walk in and see im on the comp. And if they do, i mite probably be extinct. But im trained, and i've never failed in my attempts :D being a midnight spy rocks.

There's not one minute of this month that was boring.

Okay i think thats about all! Holidays ending and im really depressed about that. So..enjoy every second and dont let it go to waste!!

Hyder..out.

Crap Day

CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP



Today I was treated like crap, almost the whole day.

OKay im like so friggin tired and i dont feel like blogging but i'll do it anyway. I dont feel like explaining to u all the shit which happened to me this day.. so i'll just say a few lines to remember how miserable today was.

~ Today i was given the title of 'apek' by Raja and Keith. -.-' And now im emotionally scarred with that name for the rest of my life. I WAS MADE FUN OF AND BULLIED BY THESE TWO, like the whole day.... apek apek apek.. (actually we're making a video for SPH competition on why u shud be kind to the apek at the hawker center. And if we win, im gonna be known as the psychotic, deranged apek for the rest of my pitiful life. I had to sing. And be a rocker.

~ In the course of the whole project, we had to take 40 mins of the hawker center for our video. So we went to Bedok and filmed. And these two keep leaving me behind all alone but at least i dont have to move my butt around so much to buy lunch. And there was a very shocking moment when we walked beside the hawker center and who do we see?

OMG OMG OMG ITS THE BAD SHOOTER!!!!!! Gee.. i mean how often do u see the person u wanna see the most at a freakin unexpected time? C-O-I-N-C-I-D-E-N-C-E............. wow wow wow i think this is the only good thing that happened today.

~ You know this whole video project is a really nice opportunity.. but u know, im given the lead ridiculous, role of the apek so it defeats the feeling of being honoured. Yea im doing sth incredible.... INCREDIBLY RETARDED!!!! ( now u know why im so bonkers about. People bully me. All the time! )

im signing off now. Dont miss me. Do my quiz. Do my poll.

Hey i know u guys got ill feelings of me, poll okay so i'll know.. Misery's my company

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

A lot has happened lately...The last time i blogged feels like a century ago. Dreamcast was a great place. No better way to share my experiences with the rest of the world. Every post holds a treasured memory.. a moment in the past.. a new friend.. thoughts and dreams..

Things change, and now im flying solo. This month in 2007, so many things in my life have changed. New friends, new experiences, and a new found love. :) Yeah, unbelieveable isnt it, a guy like me... being open to new experiences, yup, the best part of growing up. And i thank you guys for supporting me so0o0 much.. u guys rock.

I hope you guys dont mind me.. and my dark..new blog...Blogging got me into a lotta trouble not once, lotsa times :P. But it aint stopping me anymore..

Im crawling in the dark..im picking up the pieces.. im growing closer to the ones i love..im turning into a whole new me..and i've found the reason


Thats it.

HYDER 'S BACK.