Long Way To Go

Yo.

Yeah. It's me, twinkly eyes...

I know you have not been coming in here lately. Me neither. DUH. Who'd be stupid enough to

check this blog in the midst of exams... :P

Shall I say mugging? I don't think I am. I've been revising lots at school and then I sleep at home.

Then I don't really study much at night. I'm seriously putting my life at risk..

I've a few words to say for my opponents..

Add Maths: This is it. The final battle. There's only room for one of us on Earth.

Chemistry: I'm so totally psyched for this. I'll slam you with formulas..

Physics: No way are you gonna destroy me anymore. Die!!!

E Maths: CRUD!! *gulp* I just hope I can escape from you!

ML: What?! Just you wait man..

Combined Humans: Bring it on.. losers..

Geography: Bow before me..

English: Who?

Ain't flunking no more. NO MORE exam FAILURES. I'll prove to you that Metamorphosis has really taken its course. RAWRRRRR RAWWWRR!!!!!!!!!

So don't expect me to be online so often.. I'll fly higher than ever before now with fresh new wings..

Before I go, listen to this song..

It's a bit mean.. but the words speak so much.

I just like the song, don't think I'm trying to say something okay.

See Ya!
Long Way To Go

The Click Five

Was it you
That said that she could never get enough of me
But you confessed
That when we were alone you had to tell yourself to breathe
So maybe I
Should feel a little more like I've been living in a dream
Well I'm asking you should I stay

Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking about if I'd be better without you)
If we stay together
(it could get worse, then again, maybe it could get better)
Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking about if I'd be better without you)
Somethings wrong we both know
That you and I still got a long way to go

Why would you?
Wanna be with me instead of other guys
Oh make me feel
Like something special
God I think I've heard a million times
So would it be enough
To buy you everything and call you mine
'Cause it won't last long if I do

Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking about if I'd be better without you)
If we stay together
(it could get worse, then again, maybe it could get better)
Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking about if I'd be better without you)
Somethings wrong we both know
That you and I still got a long way to go

If I would leave tomorrow
You'd be the last to know

Even though I love you
If we stay together

Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking about if I'd be better without you)
If we stay together
(it could get worse, then again, maybe it could get better)
Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking about if I'd be better without you)
Somethings wrong we both know
That you and I still got a long..long way to go

Long way to go
Long way to go
Still got a long way to go

When the lights are out

"When I'm Gone"

The Click Five

Dear love
Better sit down
Bad news
Get the word out
Accidents come with conclusions

I'm numb
On the asphalt
Don't cry
Wasn't your fault
I can't feel
It's just confusion
Keep on, keep on, keep on, when I'm gone

When the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone

Tear drops
Paint the faces
Despair
Is contagious
Dressed in black
Clutching a red rose
Hold on, hold on, hold on, my love goes on

When the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone

*Hyder's guitar solo.

(LOL just kiddin) XD

When the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let me song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone

When the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone

"babeh"?

Patience is a virtue

Patience.

The ability to suppress annoyance, pain, or lost of temper.

A skill which when mastered,

may enhance one with a

psychological and physical

prowess

beyond all imagination...

Oh. Wait. Cut the crap hyder and get straight to the point.

Cancel the last three words coz thats exaggerated crap. Ehehehe..

Currently I've been exploring new ways of finding my inner peace. Isolated myself from this world of chaos and I've made frequent trips to the mosque lately. I've also been taking more night strolls when the moon is at its brightest. It has been a relaxing past few nights.

Patience is virtue.

I'm juggling so many tasks at the same time and it's really working for me.

I hope she's okay. I've got to set my priorities straight..First time I'm actually taking things so easily without a flash of anxiousness on my mind. Maybe that's why studying isn't so boring anymore...

Some things I have to let go. It's time to end this.

Rising Star

Watching a friend taking a first step towards his/her dream is truly inspiring. Especially if that step is more like a giant leap. Sometimes you just never know what great potential lies within a person, and you're really amazed when they finally show it. Talent, that's one gift we should never take for granted.

I watched Shirley sang her heart out at the superstar finals today. I could hardly believe it was the friend I knew, coz from what I saw, she was definitely superstar material. She blowed us all away with her awesome vocals...

Makes me wonder how much brighter she would shine in the future.. and I wonder how I would do the same... Wow... Everyone will have their moment one day.

Shirley's motto has always been 'Be The One'. Just goes to show that with enough hope, faith and the will to achieve, we'll all Be The One we're meant to be. :D


Gotta sleep now..before I go, here's a sketch I did of Shirley in the spotlight. I did it in the AVA, while she was singing!! HEHEHE.. oh gosh too many flaws..!! SORRY I WAS RUSHING!!

:) See Ya!

Sh*t ...

Have you ever had those days

where you are so excited to talk to someone or do something,

and you wait anxiously for that moment to come...

But then when it really happens,

it turns out the way u least expected

and just turns your world upside down.

For a person, you end up hating him/her after that.

For an event, you regret it ever occurred.

For a game, you end up the worst loser

And for something so special,

its like everything you ever did was failure

and you ask yourself:

"WHERE THE HELL DID I GO WRONG?"

It just happened to me again, and this time it's like i've sunk lower than ever before.

Don't you get it? It's always been the same damned excuse for your hostility.

You know how much it kills me,

but you never really tried to see it from my point of view.

So it's your life and I have to live with it??

I've had enough.

Two can play that game.

....

Temptations

In the battle against temptations

It's everyone's fair game

Whether you triumph or fall

It entirely depends on you

Let your mind cleanse itself of all thoughts

Let your soul find its inner peace

Let your body restore its repressed strength

And let your tummy groan with agony

LOL....!

Last Sunday, I took part in SMRT challenge with Miss Chia & Miss Koh and the 10 of us. We split into 3 groups. Me, John, Oliver and Miss Chia. Zhao Ying went with Miss Koh, Jesslyn and Siew Ee, while Rachel went with Cheng Wei, Wei Jie and Mubaraka.

Damn tired. Damn hungry. SMRT is an amazing race, and who knew it wud fall in the FASTING MONTH -.-''''' Damn hungry, Damn tired.

But I did it. My team gt 30th in singapore, Miss Koh's team got 25th then jumped to 10th ( due to unforeseen strategies ). Well that sucks, but at least they won something.. I didn't really slow down my team ( not that bad la ) but at least I survived the whole thing.

Rushing down the streets of Singapore deciphering clues, I was often lagging behind coz I had to get stuff on tape ( and at the same time, I was dying ). Geez, running around with nothing on your mind but hunger, thirst, fatigue and the desire to win, not to mention recording the whole race on camera.. all this could only make me stronger. But the best part its...

I prevailed in the war against temptation!!!!

RRRRRAWWWWWRRRRRR!!!!!!

:D

Back to work. See ya~

Metamorphosis Complete.

With nothing behind me but the past

here I stand.

I'm through feeling confused

I'm leaving that behind.

I stand facing a road

that will lead me into the unknown

Paralyzed with fear

of a choice,

or the outcome isn't clear.

My right hand clenched

the sword of Determination.

The left holding

the shield of Discipline.

My journey doesn't end here.

In fact...

it's just getting started.

Happy Birthday Hyder

Metamorphosis Complete.

I'll continue to grow and I won't look back.

Thank you.

All my friends ( ESPECIALLY the Special People )

For giving me faith and trust,

For believing in bringing out the best in me,

For understanding the way I feel and think,

For picking me up when I am down,

And for forgiving me when I'm apologizing like a

hopeless puppy.

When it's time for us to part

Our friendship will last in my heart forever.

~The New Hyder~

Twinkle. Riiiight..

Lol. My cousin took this picture of me. She said my eyes seem to twinkle. Lol. I'll just show you.
Don't stare. Don't rip. Bye

Moving forward

Heys...

:)

Yesterday was so awesome. I went to get my contact lens and now I'm enjoying the view :P. Yeah, and my parents bought me a new phone. :D Yay....it has video, Bluetooth, and a whole lotta stuff.. most importantly, A MUSIC PLAYER!!!

So let's see: New haircut, new sport shoes, new phone, new vision..
New habits, new style, new discipline.
Same old emo. Same old geek. Same old skeleton.

Well I guess I can't really change that. It's just who I am.
...
Today went off pretty well. Contacts rock...

BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY THIS #$%^& TEACHER RUINED EVERYTHING.... ITS LIKE HE PUSHED ME DOWN ALL THE WAY TO THE LOWEST POINT!! I WAS SO SUNK, I DIDNT SPEAK UNTIL I GOT HOME. DAMMIT!!! AT THE POINT YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD IT ALL GOIN' ON, SOMEONE JUST DROPS IN AND RUINS IT. All because of a stupid grade for a test. Oh..so I disappoint you and now you wanna pull me down to the lowest level next year?! He threatened me!! He threatened me!! JUST BECAUSE IM BETTER AT SOMETHING ELSE YOU WANT ME TO DROP IT FOR THIS?!?!

crud.....

Forget it. I'm not gonna let this be an obstacle! I've come THIS FAR, NO WAY AM I GONNA GIVE UP NOW. I'LL SHOW YOU!!!

...............

Glad that's over. No more crap. Metamorphosis is so close. But what happened was really harsh. I emo-ed with my new phone all the way home and I paid no attention to my surroundings. I came home with a scar. (A real one)

See. Don't ask me how I got that. You don't wanna know.

Oi! I didn't cut it on purpose!!! -.- I regret doing that!

Oh geez.

See Ya.

Emo-tamorphosis

Life's not easy, love's not real
I can't explain the way I feel
Time heals pain but pain is time
Smiles hurt too bad, laughter's a crime
Tears are always there for me
And I could cry myself a sea
Sadness doesn't go away
At least I have anger too today
Life sucks, no different phrasing there
I wish there was a world where
Things could turn out differently
Sometimes I wish that so intently
I get lost within my mind
Looking for something I'll never find

***********

Awesome poem. Bitter meaning.

This final stage of metamorphosis,

nothing else matters anymore.

Torturous pasts will be forgotten.

Some things I've held onto all this while,

just gotta let it all go.

But I know,

there's a reason; wisdom; behind all this.

This is MY retribution.

Life is never fair, so be it.

I will live this life of sorrows until the day I die,

with the hope

..of a better tomorrow.

Thank You.

So Long.

Good Night.