Best pals for eternity

To..

..my utmost closest cousin

..the striving top gun of the family

..and the best friend one could ever have

Maybe we can read other's minds but what the hell,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

ZACH

Hear Me Scream

Listen up, turn it up and rock it out
party on, I wanna hear you scream and shout
this is real, as real as it gets
I came to get down to get some f*cking respect
taking it back to hardcore level
you better be ready, put your pedal to the metal
taking it back to hardcore level
you better be ready, put your pedal to the metal.

Go!

Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved
Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved

I want domination
I want your submission
I see you’re not resisting
To this temptation
I’ve got one confession
A love deprivation
I’ve got a jet black heart
It’s all f*cked up and it’s falling apart

Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved
Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved

I’ve got another confession
I fell to temptation

And there is no question
There was some connection
I’ve got to follow my heart
No matter how far
I’ve gotta roll the dice
Never look back and never think twice

Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved
Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved

Take your past and burn it up and let it go
Carry on; I’m stronger than you’ll ever know
That’s the deal; you get no respect
You’re gonna get yours
You better watch your f*ckin neck

Take your past and burn it up and let it go
Carry on; I’m stronger than you’ll ever know
That’s the deal; you get no respect
You’re gonna get yours
You better watch your f*ckin neck

Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved
Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in

And I just wanna be, wanna be loved

Hyder's remedy for frustration

Hyder’s personal remedy for heartbreaks, despair and frustration.

1. Loud rock music - Simply by tuning up the volume for vengeful heavy metal or emo rock, this reduces the amount of hatred stored in my heart. Oh yeah, my ears get the hang of it too. Rating: *****

2. Video games - It never hurts to waste time playing your heart out at action games. The terrifying roaring of the guns, the murderous sounds of punching and slashing, the helpless wails of your enemies.. all part of virtual violence. Plus, taking your anger all out on the idiots on the screen, never hurts anyone, does it? Rating: ****

3. Rock star imitation - This one's a lil PRIVATE. You just plug in your amps and unleash the mindless rocker in you. That's all I can say. Rating: *****

4. Prayers - Seriously I find this very calming and effective. Dunno about you guys though.. Rating: ***

5. Sleep - Though I find this amazingly useless, it relieves you of pain for hours anyway. Rating: **

6. Watching wrestling - I like this one, but then again, it relieves your stress only for a moment. But I think after this you'd feel more vengeful than ever O.o Rating: **

7. Drawing gory pictures - I don't do this as much as I used to, so I forgot how much it helped. Here's an example at the bottom of the post. But then again, if you can't draw, you can always rip the blank paper to shreds. Rating: ***

8. The extensive use of the words 'RAWR', 'CRUD' and 'DAMMIT' - Erm, yeah, I'm nuts, well I still don't know why I do this. Though actually, saying these just makes me wanna curse someone. Rating: *

9. Let the anger build up inside as you emo around, venting your anger on everything in the house - This method sucks. -.- Don't. You'll end up slashing yourself anyway. Rating: -*
( eh ..why is this in the list anyway )

10. BLOG IT - The most helpful and effective method of all. Self explanatory. Rating: ******


Hey. I know some of you are pissed about me rambling on about how life sucks with crazed metaphors and lame language. It's just the way I relieve this hellbent pain. My emotions can change within a blink of an eye, and when it does, I go way extreme. See number 10? Please don't think I'm this psycho dude who can't decide what to think about. I'm not okay, and sometimes my feelings are over-exaggerated on the blog. You get what I mean?

I dunno but I feel sucky now. Sometimes happiness comes in a form of an SMS.. or just a friend to tell you that there's someone who would listen to you. But when you don't have both, I guess you gotta accept your fate and learn to find happiness on your own.

..It's this uncertainty that's killing me....



..Dammit.

The number you just dialled is currently unavailable

Agghh CRUD. I smashed the keyboard again and i'm using a spare. This happened before right? So, here I am only a quarter hour to 1am feeling all frustrated inside. My mind keeps drawing me triangles and now I'm seeing them everywhere. Maybe it's because I'm stuck at the sour edge an unexpected love triangle. There must be some mistake....

I should stop jumping to conclusions and stop being so immature. *.*

Why do I always think I'm on the receiving end of HEAVEN's helpline but HELL hangs up on me anyway?? And everytime I dial the number I get no reception.

-.- *haix*

My feelings are tearing me apart. All these words are full of uncertainty. Im not sure. Im never sure.

And if I dont find the answers I need..

...I'll rot away...

*beep beep beep beep beep beep beep....

It's amazing how a person can just change my emotions with just a snap of fingers. It's incredible how much impact the person has in my heart..

My shadow makes a fashion statement

Silhouettes just rock don't they? XDDDDDDDDDD

Woo..check me out. XDDDDDDD

Awright.
Heya...

How u guys doin lately? How come no one tags? More posts equals more tags? Anyway, i bet u guys having great start to the holidays. Goin out everyday, goin on parties, goin on barbeques, goin on dates, goin on cruises, goin on vacations, goin on alien abductions, goin on hikes, goin on nightwalks, goin on space exploration, goin on coral reef fishing, goin on skydives.. whatever.

Lucky me. I just sit at home waiting for the sky to fall. It neither rocks, nor sucks. I regret yesterday, wasted today, yet fear tomorrow. Dammit. Someone grow me a beanstalk.

Yesterday was so weird. I found out one of my pals had a crush on me. Somehow it didn't surprise me, but it aint gonna affect me anyway. Hey, I'm still your wonderful wonderful nonsensical friend, no more no less, live with it :) Who is it? Um, you wouldnt believe me if i told you...

So..
After a week of pointlessly doing nothing, my brain has turned into a void. I can now no longer remember how to solve math problems, cook up chemical equations and understand simple laws of physics. Problem? Uhh i think it is. -.-'

I better get to work on my holiday crap, but i somehow fear something. Somethin's tellin me to just sit back and relax. It's tellin me I should break off from the world of academics. Tellin me to... slack...... slack........ slaaaaack..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

......
4E1 dammit. Life is so miserable, yet rewarding. I contradict myself and I don't know why.
Well, tag me lots okay (and i dont mean spam). Misery, keep an eye out for critics. Code: 876 553 23AL. Weird name huh?

Well i guess my work awaits. I need to reboot. See yahs! :)))))))))))))))))))
Oh, and thanks for coming.

~Hydhydhydhydhydhydhydhydhydhyd




*y'know, being further away from you just makes me miss ya more. ;)

sCrEw tHiS.....

Stupid day. Stupid boring day.
Stupid boring, wasted day.

Today sucks. Practically nothing happened. Nothing. No thrills, no spills, no chills, no frills, NOTHING. NOTHING, DAMMIT.



I'd never felt so bloody bored in my entire life. And I actually got no mood to touch on schoolwork. I stayed in the whole day, doing nothing. Okay, well I went for prayer at noon and then I watched my bro play GetAmped for a few hours. I played the ps with my bros then I felt lethargic. Then I did nothing. I dont know how the hell time passed so fast. No progress, a day wasted.

I just tried talking to her. Maybe it'd cheered me up. But it just made me feel more gloomy than ever. Its not your fault, its me. No one would talk to me coz I'm a deranged fool. And now I'm stuck at home with about 2 months of

...working on a new neverending fiction
...making my own cardgame
...talking pointless crap with unworthy souls on the internet

...doing piles and piles of homework

...mugging like there's no tomorrow
...going back to school for some media competition
...being a couch potato watching wrestling


Oh come on. Someone just get our ass down from your sick planet and just take me with you.

This
Is
Sick.



.......emo.....emo.....emo.....emo.........

top of the world

TEN DAYS!!!!

The future 4E1..
a bright future ahead huh?

warming up

HEY HEY HEY

I'm Hyder. Welcome to my same-old-same-old blog. -.-
....
What's my name? Hyder. -.-
....
okay.

Haix, what a day. It's 7/11, the last day of school for us sec 3e1-ians. A week and a half of prep classes, phew! And we just had our physics SPA (science practical exam, no massages) before we ended the day. And ho ho was the morning so freakishly enjoyable. Everyone was so extra-high today, like we had steroids for breakfast.

Y'know, for the first class in 3e1, we aint that nerdy nor geeky but we're not on the rough edge either. We're somewhere in the middle, but above all the rest. And that just rocks.

3E1 guys love to yap tons of the most nonsensical crap, joke with the teachers and bullying sharil. Hahah. The girls? They just contribute 95% of our noise level. HAHAHA!! :P My class is just full of fun and humour(crappy), we never fail to make each other laugh.

And we're the most ENTERPRISING, LAME, JOYOUS, NOISIEST, BRAINIEST, PUNCTUAL class in sec 3 express. XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

HAHAHAHAH!! yeah i know it rocks, please dont envy us. But we're kinda arrogant and we're not that tight, and we tend to face the heaviest load of homework. Yeah. -.-

Why am I tellin u this? Coz I never once thought I wud love my class so much as I do now. And I feel so honoured to be among the best bunch in the school. Now that school has ended, we'll all realize and appreciate our sense of belonging to the class, like me LOL. We're sky rocketing to 4e1 in 2008, and together, we'll soar the highest skies!!!!!!

4E1 4ever.

:)